My brain is pessimistic and negative

31 Dec

I now realize it is a FACT.  I can’t trust my brain. Every ‘to do’ feels like a big deal!  Time and time again.  But ONCE I start, the task shrinks to ‘no big deal’.

I’ve known about this phenomenon for a long time. But for some reason, the reality of this fact penetrated my reasoning last night and I knew it once and for all as TRUE.

My mother would often tell me: ‘Maria – the thinking is the worst part!”

So what kinds of things does my brain lie to me about?  What does my brain try to convince me to avoid doing because it’s going to be PAINFUL?  Things like:

  • getting out of bed to go downstairs and work out in the morning
  • recording a new video for a YouTube channel I operate
  • facing Monday mornings and the start of a new teaching week at school
  • gathering and sorting receipts for our annual tax return
  • solving a sticky tech challenge or other problem
  • preparing a meal ahead of time for tomorrow (for it to marinate in the frig overnight)

I know it sounds pathetic, but when one of the above and many other tasks loom, I start to dread the idea of facing it.

Each and every time.

But once I start, and certainly by the time I have finished, I can say with sincerity, “Well, that really wasn’t such a big deal!  I don’t know why I dreaded it.”

I’ll tell you why, it’s because the brain optimizes for pleasant.  And all these ‘things I gotta do’ don’t feel pleasant to my brain.  My brain casts each in a heavy light, as burdens to bear and ‘get through’. So I dread them.

Here’s what I realized last night:   I don’t HAVE to listen to my brain.  I can use my reasoning skills to silence my brain.  I’M in charge.  Not my brain.

So, here’s to the start of a new year.

I’m no longer going to listen to my brain.  I’m just going to say ‘Shut up!  I’m in charge here.”

By God’s grace, I will exercise the reasoning skills He has given me to silence my pessimistic and negative brain!

I looked up all the proverbs on how to deal with a fool. The one I chose I’ve modified to fit this new discovery about my untrustworthy brain.

Prov 12:15 The way of fools seems right to them,
    but the wise listen to advice.

In my case against my brain, I will remember:  The way of my brain seems right to it….but reason-based Maria makes decisions that are best for her, ignoring that reptilian pessimist!




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