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How do I know that I REALLY believe?

11 Jan

“Assurance of my position IN the family of God or OUT of the family sometimes FEELS tenuous.   What if I’m deceiving myself?  What if I THINK I believe what Jesus taught, what the Bible says? But what if I don’t really believe but I THINK I do?  How do I know if I’m sincere?”

Do you know someone who shares those kinds of thoughts?  Do you sometimes go around and around yourself, wondering if you really are saved?

Yesterday for ‘some’ reason that discouraging scenario popped into my mind while driving home.  I turned off what I was listening to and set my mind to figuring out how I would respond to an imaginary friend. Here’s the conversation I had in my head:

Me: You’re not sure if you REALLY believe you are saved, is that it?

Friend: Yes.

Me:  And you would like some assurance so you can put this issue to rest, once and for all?

Friend: PLEASE!

Me: Okay, let’s imagine that you came to me and shared that you were uncertain if you REALLY believed in gravity.  Do you know what I would have you do?

Friend: (a bit puzzled) Ah, no….what?

Me:  I’d say:  Test it out!  Let’s get some evidence for the reality of gravity.  Here, get up on this chair and step out into the air, off the chair and see what happens.

(Friend follows my instructions and lands on his/her feet)

Me:  You now have evidence that gravity is REAL.  Do you believe it is real?

Friend:  Of course!

Me:  Are you sure? Why do you now think that your belief is sincere?

Friend:  Because I have evidence that gravity is real.

Me:  Exactly! So let’s apply the same principle to belief IN God, that is, faith in Jesus’ work done in his life and on the cross, which is SAVING faith.  What evidence do you think would prove that you have been born from above, that you belong to the family of God?

Friend:  Hmmm, maybe if I prayed and received answers to prayer?  Maybe a miracle?

Me:  Possibly, but you might just rationalize them to be a coincidence.

Me:  Here is what I find to be irrefutable evidence:  the conviction of the Holy Spirit.

Me: Before I became a ‘new creation in Christ’ I had NO experience of this kind of conviction or heart remorse and prompting.  I might have felt GUILT or SHAME at being CALLED OUT for doing something wrong, but never did I feel GRIEF at hurting a person.

Friend: I know what you mean!  A couple of months ago, I said something offhand, unnecessary, AND self-aggrandizing to a colleague at school. As soon as I was in the car driving home, ‘it’ hit me:  my judgmental tone, facial expression, and remark.  With genuine remorse, I immediately confessed to the Father.  And I could hardly wait for the next day to seek out my co-worker and ask forgiveness for my unkind, unfair and self-righteous comment.  Although not a believer, she graciously received my apology.  I was both relieved and grateful.

Me:  Right!  and before, when you KNOW for sure that you were NOT a believer, did you experience that kind of prompting by the Holy Spirit?

Friend: No!

Me:  There you have it! I think Holy Spirit conviction IS evidence of His permanent presence in your heart.  You cannot deceive yourself about that.  Besides……do you think Satan planted that thought in your head to confess?  or has it always been part of your nature to feel bad about every self-righteous comment you’ve made?

Friend: Fat chance that Satan wants me to humble myself and seek reconciliation.  And I never used to pay attention to my comments to others, the way I do now.

Me:  Okay, then. That settles it.  If you start to doubt again whether you truly are saved, just remember the evidence of God’s Spirit IN you!  His convicting work is called sanctification!